Like a magician
he takes my dreams & turns them into a real, live paradise
He asks to hold my hand & I offer him my heart,
never thinking twice.
Somebody wise once gave me this advice:
a woman only needs a moment to determine if a man is the one;
then I saw him and when I did I felt the sun,
and every man before him was instantly outdone.
Ironically, I found love yet I don't feel the need to run.
Finally, a new chapter has begun????
I'm i.n.s.a.n.e.
(I wrote that mess last week foolin around on my blackberry. )
I really don't think I fall in "love" easily. Hell I'm a cynic, I try to convince myself that I don't even believe in it. But I do know that I fall in & out of lust very easily, and over & over & over again. and it's so wonderful, lol
Whew...a went through another whirlwind of getting it all wrong.
"Eu sei, jogos de amor são pra se jogar, ah por favor, não vem me explicar o que eu não sei e o que eu já sei"....
blah.blah.blah.
I miss that boy & I don't even know why. Facebook stalkin like a MOFO'!
I have a show tomorrow and I don't know wtf is gonna happen, lol. Practice got cancelled tonight which is really not a good thing...and I'm sick on top of it all.
Poop sandwich!!!
Something is peculiar...that's all I have to say......
Life is weird. Everything I think I want I end up not really wanting, at some time or another. Indecisiveness may very well be the death of me in terms of relationships, careers, etc.
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It's cinco de mayo tho and that means I will hopefully be taking some shots of tequila later so that I can further internalize my disgruntledness & somewhat adolescent issues and put on my other face. It's so convenient when you get to escape the real world and hide behind that blurry mask that is alcohol.
I'm babbling...
I stayed out last night until the sun rose. I haven't made a night of nething like that since this past summer when me & Rashad stayed out in LODO until like 6am. Super fun & exciting.It wasn't good come time for dance practice however. I was so out of it & just waiting for the end of practice lol. But we did learn a really fun ending to our main number for Lyric Ave. Now I'm way more excited for the next show. Me & Jess went to Akida for sushi last night & it was so delicious. I want to go back sometime this week. Their sushi is so great & cheap. Good thing I made 43 bucks selling two books back yesterday. I definitely thought I would only get 5 bucks a pop & was about to not even bother selling them back but I'm sure glad I did because otherwise I would've been broke! Well I'm broke now again anyway. I have just enough money in my account to pay rent. Thankfully my mom is giving me 600 dollars...I hope, lol. If not I have more books lol. Blah, I really need a job workin the pole. ;-)In other news I have been trying to eat as much as possible lately. For some reason I really can't eat much junk food. I mean I did eat an entire box of swiss cake rolls in three days but it was really hard to do. I almost puked a few times. I don't know how to put my 5 lbs back on. I just want to reach a consistent 120 like I used to be. I dont know why my body wants to stay at 115, but it's annoying. I'm gonna go try to eat some cheetos.
